There Was A Reason For My Madness

At least it wasn’t a straight jacket this time!

This is an update on my earlier post. For a few weeks I’ve been feeling a bit off. Dizzy, mood swings, anxious, tremors, stuttering, forgetfulness.

I thought my mental junk had just pushed me over with a dozer. Nope. It was that I was diagnosed several years ago with cervical spinal stenosis at the c6 and c7 area. After several steroidal injections I hadn’t had any problems.

Apparently, I forgot what it was like last time it was flaring up. All my symptoms and most of the agitation were coming from the collapsed spine. I seriously was beginning to think I needed a stay at the hospital for observation. Which doesn’t happen but about every few years for me. I am usually hanging by a thread before I’ll admit myself to a psych ward. I’m really surprised with the way I’d been treating my husband that he didn’t try to commit me.

My husband told me I was so abusive he wanted to hurt himself sometimes. I’m tired of being a monster. I want to be nice again. So my point is, sometimes your moods can be caused by something like cervical spinal stenosis. If you are feeling not like you! Check it out! ( This was the case for me).

Published by Jill L. Ware

Hello! I am a lot of things. First and foremost, I am me. Like it or leave it I believe God made me just as I am. That I need to go through these trials and tribulation to become who it is I am meant to be. does it suck? yes it does. I have two sons and three granddaughter and one on the way. I've been diagnosed with bipolar and borderline personality disorder for several years. This is a way to let my words out, get them out of my head. You are not alone in your struggle with these diseases, it's exhausting trying to be normal. Or what we percieve as normal.

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