It was at the young age of 15 that I thought about killing myself. I didn’t feel like I was enough for anyone in my life. I felt abandoned. I started drinking and smoking pot. Not a lot. Just trying to kill the pain. I always have felt lost. Everything has to change all theContinue reading “Confessions Of A Disoriented Blogger #2”
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Confessions Of A Disoriented Blogger #1
In all honesty, I turned 50 and slid right into menopause like I have had lots of years experience being a monster. I do not like menopause, no I do not, not one little bit. I don’t think my husband does either.
Take Care Of You! No One Else Will.
Pre Menopause
WTH! If you saw my very first video blog, I was a nervous, crying mess. The day after I posted that to my sight, I spent six hours in the ER trying to find out why I wasn’t feeling like myself. There is no definition of normal to follow. I just knew whatever was goingContinue reading “Pre Menopause”
There Was A Reason For My Madness
This is an update on my earlier post. For a few weeks I’ve been feeling a bit off. Dizzy, mood swings, anxious, tremors, stuttering, forgetfulness. I thought my mental junk had just pushed me over with a dozer. Nope. It was that I was diagnosed several years ago with cervical spinal stenosis at the c6Continue reading “There Was A Reason For My Madness”
Maybe I Have Not Lost My Mind
I am always willing to admit when my junk is out of wack. But man lately I just am not bouncing back. People we know our own bodies, if you feel something isn’t right get another opinion besides your own. After a video conference with my primary doctor today about my moods, anxiousness and severalContinue reading “Maybe I Have Not Lost My Mind”
Feeling Really Messed Up Lately
I don’t know if it’s from turning fifty or that this pandemic has caused financial strain and anxiety in my life. The one thing I can be sure of is that my husband has probably thought about divorcing me. I would if I were him. Just when my moods couldn’t get any worse, my husbandContinue reading “Feeling Really Messed Up Lately”
The Revenge Screw
When I started this journey into blogging I stated I would mention the good the bad and the ugly. I didn’t just mean everyone else behavior. After all I do have bipolar and borderline personality disorder. I don’t have the behaviors near as often anymore. occasionally they do sneak out. FYI this was many yearsContinue reading “The Revenge Screw”
Where There Is Fear There Is No Faith!
That saying is complete bull! Fear is a natural reaction to certain situations. Everyone was created different, so their reactions to things will be different. I have an absolute fear of snakes, my niece adores them. Does that mean she has faith and I do not. NO. We just fear different things and that isContinue reading “Where There Is Fear There Is No Faith!”
Concrete Walls Without Windows Are A Prison To A Child!
My sister has always said this big eyes photo reminds her of us as children living in the basement. Except her pet was stuffed. After my mother and father divorced our mother married a Yellow Freight driver that she had met while waiting tables in a truck stop. He was quite a bit older thanContinue reading “Concrete Walls Without Windows Are A Prison To A Child!”
