What a blessing it is to be alive. To love and be loved..
It was at the young age of 15 that I thought about killing myself. I didn’t feel like I was enough for anyone in my life. I felt abandoned. I started drinking and smoking pot. Not a lot. Just trying to kill the pain. I always have felt lost. Everything has to change all theContinue reading “Confessions Of A Disoriented Blogger #2”
In all honesty, I turned 50 and slid right into menopause like I have had lots of years experience being a monster. I do not like menopause, no I do not, not one little bit. I don’t think my husband does either.
WTH! If you saw my very first video blog, I was a nervous, crying mess. The day after I posted that to my sight, I spent six hours in the ER trying to find out why I wasn’t feeling like myself. There is no definition of normal to follow. I just knew whatever was goingContinue reading “Pre Menopause”
This is an update on my earlier post. For a few weeks I’ve been feeling a bit off. Dizzy, mood swings, anxious, tremors, stuttering, forgetfulness. I thought my mental junk had just pushed me over with a dozer. Nope. It was that I was diagnosed several years ago with cervical spinal stenosis at the c6Continue reading “There Was A Reason For My Madness”
I am always willing to admit when my junk is out of wack. But man lately I just am not bouncing back. People we know our own bodies, if you feel something isn’t right get another opinion besides your own. After a video conference with my primary doctor today about my moods, anxiousness and severalContinue reading “Maybe I Have Not Lost My Mind”
I don’t know if it’s from turning fifty or that this pandemic has caused financial strain and anxiety in my life. The one thing I can be sure of is that my husband has probably thought about divorcing me. I would if I were him. Just when my moods couldn’t get any worse, my husbandContinue reading “Feeling Really Messed Up Lately”
When I started this journey into blogging I stated I would mention the good the bad and the ugly. I didn’t just mean everyone else behavior. After all I do have bipolar and borderline personality disorder. I don’t have the behaviors near as often anymore. occasionally they do sneak out. FYI this was many yearsContinue reading “The Revenge Screw”
That saying is complete bull! Fear is a natural reaction to certain situations. Everyone was created different, so their reactions to things will be different. I have an absolute fear of snakes, my niece adores them. Does that mean she has faith and I do not. NO. We just fear different things and that isContinue reading “Where There Is Fear There Is No Faith!”