My Desire To Be Their Grandma Jill

My desire to be the best grandmother I can be is one of the most important things to me. That these children don’t have to see the side of me that my children did. Not towards them, but towards my abusive husbands. Although, some days these little ones give me a run for my money.Continue reading “My Desire To Be Their Grandma Jill”

Life Is Good…When I Want It To Be

The alarm goes off, I spring into action. Shower, brush my teeth, do my hair and makeup and tend to the pets. Wake up honey lets go have coffee I tell my husband. Can we go see the grandkids today? I ask. Do you want to visit the cabin? It is so nice this timeContinue reading “Life Is Good…When I Want It To Be”

Rituximab saved my life!

It has been nearly two years since I started the Rituxan infusions, my quality of life increasing with each one. When I first started the infusions my vectra score was a 58. Which meant my disease activity was severe. My most recent blood work shows my vectra score at a 3. Down 55 points. YesContinue reading “Rituximab saved my life!”

Confessions Of A Disoriented Blogger #2

It was at the young age of 15 that I thought about killing myself. I didn’t feel like I was enough for anyone in my life. I felt abandoned. I started drinking and smoking pot. Not a lot. Just trying to kill the pain. I always have felt lost. Everything has to change all theContinue reading “Confessions Of A Disoriented Blogger #2”

There Was A Reason For My Madness

This is an update on my earlier post. For a few weeks I’ve been feeling a bit off. Dizzy, mood swings, anxious, tremors, stuttering, forgetfulness. I thought my mental junk had just pushed me over with a dozer. Nope. It was that I was diagnosed several years ago with cervical spinal stenosis at the c6Continue reading “There Was A Reason For My Madness”