As I sit here getting my chemo treatment, I watch and listen to those around me. I am blessed. There are so many in pain and sick from their treatments. Over the years I see patients come and go. Some are now cancer free others didn’t beat their disease. I really appreciate the life GodContinue reading “I could be so much worse”
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Reflection
What do you see when you look at your reflection? I’d almost bet it’s not what other people see. We are our own worst critics. Love Yourself!
What a Blessed woman I Am
This Mother’s Day was great. It’s the first time in years we all got together in one place. As a person with BPD I have had bad behaviors or toxic marriages that have interfered with my relationships with my children and grandchildren. Knock on wood. My behavior is better, my husband and best friend isContinue reading “What a Blessed woman I Am”
Time For Me
Putting others needs before my own, it is a behavior that I’ve always known. Never learning to say No, making it impossible to just go. I need some quite time just for me, a place to go and just Be. Exhaustion isn’t far away, it’s lurking just around the Bay. I am busy as canContinue reading “Time For Me”
Unrest In The World
I have no idea if this is just racism, or if it’s political tactics, or just plain stupidity. But for those of us with already underlining mental issues it can make us uneasy, paranoid and just plain scared. Oh wait! You don’t even have to have mental illness to have this affect your lives andContinue reading “Unrest In The World”
Mother’s Day Fun
I haven’t blogged for a little while. What happens is when I let go of the hurt and pain and anger I can write. But when I’m hurt or angry I have a hard time getting my focus back. I let the stupidest things affect my thoughts. Someone I hadn’t seen in several years toldContinue reading “Mother’s Day Fun”
The Two Paths
These photos are like my life. One minute nice and smooth and the next rough terrain. It’s how we handle the ride that’s important. The more of the rough waters we survive the more we appreciate the smoother paths. Our trials are what make us who we are, helps build our character. Sometimes for theContinue reading “The Two Paths”
Wondering Aimlessly
Do you ever catch yourself going from place to place to place and feeling like you don’t belong anywhere. Or sometimes you can be in a room full of people and feel like you’re completely alone. That’s how I have felt the past two days. I go somewhere and stay five or 10 minutes andContinue reading “Wondering Aimlessly”
I Am She
She lived her life only for that day, Walking alone and scared. If she knew the world would be this way, She never would have cared. She cries herself to sleep, To her, his promises he’d never keep. Her pillow soaking up the tears, To her months felt like years. How he truly felt sheContinue reading “I Am She”
This Man
He Knows all of my secrets, Yet he loves me. There are no regrets, With me he desires to be. He has a temper at times, Not near as harsh as mine. We’ve been friends for so long, There is no way this can go wrong. He holds me and lets me cry, Spoils me,Continue reading “This Man”
