Young Love

Those lips and how they made me feel, I’d sell my soul to taste them once again. Never had anything felt so real, Thoughts of you pour like rain. I don’t fight them anymore,          visiting me in my dreams. Are you just as you were before, We, you’ve forgotten it seems. Nothing ever felt soContinue reading “Young Love”

Be You!

Put on your best smile, go that extra mile. Be courteous and nice, don’t ever think twice. Lift up one another, be your neighbors brother. Love with all your might, don’t give up without a fight. Ask for nothing in return, be the example so they can learn. Be you, let your light shine through.Continue reading “Be You!”

Beauty and Her Beast

If you aren’t someone she sees almost ever day, With you her monster likely won’t play. If she cares for you even the slightest bit, Out of nowhere her monster you might get. She tries to keep him on a short chain, All the while inside her he’s raising Cain. For no reason at all,Continue reading “Beauty and Her Beast”

There Was A Reason For My Madness

This is an update on my earlier post. For a few weeks I’ve been feeling a bit off. Dizzy, mood swings, anxious, tremors, stuttering, forgetfulness. I thought my mental junk had just pushed me over with a dozer. Nope. It was that I was diagnosed several years ago with cervical spinal stenosis at the c6Continue reading “There Was A Reason For My Madness”

Feeling Really Messed Up Lately

I don’t know if it’s from turning fifty or that this pandemic has caused financial strain and anxiety in my life. The one thing I can be sure of is that my husband has probably thought about divorcing me. I would if I were him. Just when my moods couldn’t get any worse, my husbandContinue reading “Feeling Really Messed Up Lately”

The Revenge Screw

When I started this journey into blogging I stated I would mention the good the bad and the ugly. I didn’t just mean everyone else behavior. After all I do have bipolar and borderline personality disorder. I don’t have the behaviors near as often anymore. occasionally they do sneak out. FYI this was many yearsContinue reading “The Revenge Screw”

Where There Is Fear There Is No Faith!

That saying is complete bull! Fear is a natural reaction to certain situations. Everyone was created different, so their reactions to things will be different. I have an absolute fear of snakes, my niece adores them. Does that mean she has faith and I do not. NO. We just fear different things and that isContinue reading “Where There Is Fear There Is No Faith!”

I’m a terrible sister

My sister and I both suffer from bpd and bipolar. Anxiety , depression and whatever else you want to throw in there. For several years now I’ve had to be stronger for her. Handle her with kid gloves you might say. We both have suicidal tendencies. I have attempted twice. She is my best friendContinue reading “I’m a terrible sister”

I’m a spoiled brat

My husband and I are one of those couples that everyone wants to be like. But he is afraid of the wrath he will reap if he tells me “no”. I don’t like that. I struggle to not act like a spoiled rotten bitch. Most the time succeeding. But today I lost my shit. IContinue reading “I’m a spoiled brat”