Pre Menopause

Marijuana Use and Mental Illness

June 4, 2021June 4, 2021 Jill L. Ware

It has been a while since I have posted anything. Recently I had a visit with the mental health professional. It didn’t go well. Two year ago I applied for my medical marijuana card. When I was approved, I started smoking it up. Only in the evenings. My moods had become quit unpredictable which was not exactly out of character for me. My moods were increasing daily. I began being very suspicious of people and situations.

My doctor has been treating for twenty years, he knows me very well. Let me tell you now schizophrenia runs in my family.Apparently not everyone should be smoking marijuana. Because I already have mental health issues and schizophrenia runs in the family I was getting more unstable the more I smoked. The moral of the story, not everyone should get stoned. It may help many, but can also be harmful to some.

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The Calm After The Storm

August 18, 2020August 18, 2020 Jill L. Ware

I really hate that when you are in the chaos of bipolar sometimes you don’t even know it. Taking some time for me at the lake. The rest is much needed from about three weeks of mania.

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Confessions Of A Disoriented Blogger #1

August 16, 2020 Jill L. Ware

In all honesty, I turned 50 and slid right into menopause like I have had lots of years experience being a monster. I do not like menopause, no I do not, not one little bit. I don’t think my husband does either.

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August 15, 2020 Jill L. Ware

WTH! If you saw my very first video blog, I was a nervous, crying mess. The day after I posted that to my sight, I spent six hours in the ER trying to find out why I wasn’t feeling like myself. There is no definition of normal to follow. I just knew whatever was going on was not your normal bipolar or borderline episode. I literally could not breathe and my hands were trembling, my heart beating uncontrollably. I even yelled at my granddaughters, which yes they needed disciplined. But not in that tone. That is not me, even on my worst day.

To make a long story short, I was diagnosed as premenopausal. Oh boy! If this is a sign of what’s to come I’m pretty sure everyone will divorce me.

My poor husband, I abused him so badly that for the first time in 20 years of knowing me and nearly five years of marriage, he mentioned the D word.

It would be different if it was just a menopause diagnosis, but combined with my other mood disorders it really is a concern for me.

I watched my video several times before I posted it and was fine with it. The next day I was like I sure do hope it helped someone, I was a freaking mess.

So if anyone reads this that has experience in the menopause and other mood disorders combined, I sure could use some advice.