My Desire To Be Their Grandma Jill

My desire to be the best grandmother I can be is one of the most important things to me. That these children don’t have to see the side of me that my children did. Not towards them, but towards my abusive husbands. Although, some days these little ones give me a run for my money.Continue reading “My Desire To Be Their Grandma Jill”

Life Is Good…When I Want It To Be

The alarm goes off, I spring into action. Shower, brush my teeth, do my hair and makeup and tend to the pets. Wake up honey lets go have coffee I tell my husband. Can we go see the grandkids today? I ask. Do you want to visit the cabin? It is so nice this timeContinue reading “Life Is Good…When I Want It To Be”

Young Love

Those lips and how they made me feel, I’d sell my soul to taste them once again. Never had anything felt so real, Thoughts of you pour like rain. I don’t fight them anymore,          visiting me in my dreams. Are you just as you were before, We, you’ve forgotten it seems. Nothing ever felt soContinue reading “Young Love”

Be You!

Put on your best smile, go that extra mile. Be courteous and nice, don’t ever think twice. Lift up one another, be your neighbors brother. Love with all your might, don’t give up without a fight. Ask for nothing in return, be the example so they can learn. Be you, let your light shine through.Continue reading “Be You!”

Beauty and Her Beast

If you aren’t someone she sees almost ever day, With you her monster likely won’t play. If she cares for you even the slightest bit, Out of nowhere her monster you might get. She tries to keep him on a short chain, All the while inside her he’s raising Cain. For no reason at all,Continue reading “Beauty and Her Beast”

Feeling Really Messed Up Lately

I don’t know if it’s from turning fifty or that this pandemic has caused financial strain and anxiety in my life. The one thing I can be sure of is that my husband has probably thought about divorcing me. I would if I were him. Just when my moods couldn’t get any worse, my husbandContinue reading “Feeling Really Messed Up Lately”

The Revenge Screw

When I started this journey into blogging I stated I would mention the good the bad and the ugly. I didn’t just mean everyone else behavior. After all I do have bipolar and borderline personality disorder. I don’t have the behaviors near as often anymore. occasionally they do sneak out. FYI this was many yearsContinue reading “The Revenge Screw”